I want to Thank you very much for your your compassion! I got my husband away for 5 days to enjoy the fall and our 54 anniversary. I know he has very much pain in his back. I also suffer with so much Fibro pain.
I had to pack and unpack every little thing and big too. I couldnt believe him that we even had to bring groceries to fix in condo. We did get out for two meals. He has always been like that I really could sceam! I really don't have any living support except my 2 counselors. I have girl friends for at least 45 years and more. They just don't get anything I am going through with at least 2 major issues in my life. One just talks about herself all the time. 15 years ago I suffered major depression and had to go on disabiity and retire from my job. When I found my husband had cancer 3 1/2 yrs ago, I took a spiraling when I asked my sister and kid's for support . My sister never calls, the boys and spouses go their merry way. I finally reached out to a small church my husband likes and we attend regularly. I joined a women's group there, They are much younger than me and I really hate to complain too much. Also joined a senior group, my husband maybe will come, but only tell them about his cancer. I know my husband gets very tired. He sleeps a lot during the day in a chair with his tv going. He goes to bed by 7 pm after ,several glasses of wine. I am unable to have any due to meds I am on.

His oncologist recently said there isn't more she can do his cancer has spread so per her advice he just started seeing a Specalist at the U who advises several injections. It could last up to three years. I am really having trouble with this. My husband is not the same person as before the cancer. We really don't socialize anymore. It really is difficult to go anywhere. Three years is a long time that he already has had this. I continue tiredness, and lots of pain. Thank You So Much For Listening.