Have completed chemo, had radical hysterectomy and now taking lynparz.

@ginmav Many of our members have shared their reactions and anxiety about cancer and their treatments. Is that what you mean by "the cancer cloud"? Or are you referring to brain fog?

If you can explain a little more then I will tag some of our members who have shared about their own experiences.

Sorry for the confusion. Not chemo fog.

Just trying to deal with the anxiety everytime you have to go for scans and living the unknown.

i struggled with this and i'm still struggling.

the 1st thing i did was telling all the people in my life that knew was "the treatment went well and I am expected to live a while so you all can relax. there's no need to call every week and talk about cancer with me. I'm sure we'd all like to return to the fun stuff we typically talk about"

that statement to everyone helped a lot because it stopped being a daily conversation in my life.

the 2nd thing i did was hand it over to God or for if you prefer to fate. my logic was simple, i did everything the doctors said to do to improve my changes. so that means there's no point in worrying, all that could be done was done.

I can't do anything about the future while it is still in the future. so if the cancer is going to return at some date in the future there's no point in letting it occupy my today and my joy for life.

spend your day doing the little things that bring you joy, if you have spare time and money do the big things that bring you joy. I told my husband my goal now is to be on my death bed and say "i should have spent more time cleaning the house". i don't want to push any joy off until "someday" - nope for me, someday is today.

If you enjoy reading faith based books Max Lucado has a book out that is called "Tame Your Thoughts" it's really helping me to let go of the anxiety. You can buy the study guide on amazon and it comes with a code for 6 streaming sessions that deal with the topic of the week and weekly questions to help you get to the root of your thoughts.

I have read a children’s book recently that had a father’s advice for his daughter … “You can’t choose how you feel. You can choose how you act. Choose courage.”
I’ve had about 40 CT scans and 15 PET scans, and no matter how much I try not to, I always get anxious. I trust God, He is in control. I’m not afraid of death, but anxiety is a reality that sometimes you can’t stop from happening. When I’m told the results by the oncologist, I’m usually fine! It’s just not knowing that I find difficult.

@klue

Thank you for taking the time to reply. I also feel I did everything they told me to do. I know that I am blessed for getting this far.

Your words helped tremendously. Again thank you and hope we have continued success.

@jenelleseaman

Thank you for your reply.
I believe the anxiety we all have. I think I just needed to hear what others feel and I am not alone.

I wish all of us continued success in this journey.