@bbams Please don’t punish yourself. I’m suffering from chronic pain due to DDD, degenerative disc disease.m which was diagnosed over 25 years ago. For many years it was simply painful but not disabling. However for the last five years I’ve been bedridden for 16-20 hours per day due to pain. My dear wife of 41years is very supportive and makes all the difference in the world. I’m sure your husband enormously appreciates you and your efforts. Please turn to Jesus for additional support. Remember His words: “With God all things are possible”. They certainly are and He carries me through many days. Your husband is fortunate to have such a loving and caring wife. May God Bless you both and ease your pains and suffering.