@chippydoo Perhaps I'm looking for more of a life coach through the treatment process: someone who can monitor me personally and recommend actions regarding nutrition, exercise, social interaction, and coping mechanisms and help hold me accountable. I lost both my dad and my younger sister to suicidal depression, and there are far too many times I would like simply to fall asleep and not wake up. I've promised my wife that I will not take actions to harm myself, but I would also like the two of us not to have to spend the next 2-3 years during which life for one of us is mostly miserable. I hope this makes sense. I think someone who has guided other prostate cancer patients through treatment could be helpful.