@lkbous It is so difficult to lose your spouse little by little. My husband was always the one with the best advice for our family, friends, and for me. I really miss that part of our relationship as well as the confidante that he was for me. It is not easy and my feelings are up and down. On my bad days I am angry or scared but on my good days I am proud of myself for stepping up to the challenges and realities of my new life. I am the one that takes care of all household tasks: bill paying -including taxes, yard work, keeping track of all appointments and the following up.( I feel guilty admitting this though, as I must be having a pity party today.) Like you, my spouse can still take care of himself physically. He works out a lot. But I do not think of our future too much. Thanks for letting me vent!