Hang in there, Jesus loves you! I too am 70 yo depression plagued person. There is help out there. I just a year ago couldn’t believe I had been depressed for over 50 year's and been on about every antidepressant made. Over the last couple of years I have done
TMS ( trans magnetic therapy) like a watered down ECT. I did a CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) both group and individual therapy. Which I could start the depression lifting, I’m still on antidepressants but not nearly as depressed as I had been for years. Now I ordered some over the counter patches called OceAura that u put one on everyday. Has that made a difference. I am no longer dragging thru the day, I see things that need to be done and I actually have the energy to do the task. I’m surprising myself at the loud laugh I now have, that I haven’t heard for years. I sleep better with a c pap machine, and I’m no longer dragging thru each day exhausted, seeing things that need to be done. I don’t believe it myself, there has been a positive shift in my day. I actually talk to people and carry on conversations. I was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease 3 weeks ago and I’m doing better instead of worse. I’ve seen a holistic doctor. I’m searching for a better life. My husband has Parkinson’s disease with Lewy Body Dementia and I am his care giver. So my life is not a bed of roses. 🥀 I just want you to know that it is possible. Never stop searching, don’t give up, turn to Jesus. He in himself is enough if u have him in your heart and corner. Do not take ur life my 68 yo brother did 16 yrs ago and the entire family still miss him and wonder why he did such a terrible thing. It doesn’t get better, ❤️‍🩹 we miss him everyday. Dead is dead forever. No coming back. No grandchildren marriages, graduations, great grandkids, and your children will be scared for life. I wish I could just sit down face to face with u, we could come up with a outline and some bullet points to get you to and through the accomplished goals that have been achieved. Please reply if I hit upon any points that u can identify with and we can discuss it further. I would welcome questions. And if I can’t answer, we will find answers together. God bless you.