Thank you. He is 25. It has been years since he saw a psychiatrist, but I will continue to encourage him to do so. He saw a couple counselors the last few years, but ended up angry at both and quitting, and I have no info on even who they were, just taking his word for it, as he gets intensely private about those things. He won't take meds, he tried at 19 when we made him go to the psychiatrist (we had financial leverage then, so he went when we said he had to get help, but now he does hold down a job long enough to stay independent) and says it messed him up more, though we tried to explain that it can take a while to find the right med and dosage, but it is very difficult for him to hear rational thought. I do appreciate the words about it is beyond what I can handle, as he wants me to make everything better in his times of intense emotional pain, and I have tried so hard to support and love him through it, but he gets angry that I am not enough. I have told him that I am not enough, that I love him deeply and want to help, but he needs more help, help that I am unable to give. It only makes him angrier and he accuses me of not being the mother he needs. I need to figure out when to exactly call 911, as he didn't specifically say he was going to kill himself last night, he just said he probably won't make it till November as he is beyond his breaking point. Do I call at that point? I really need guidance, guess I need to see someone about all of this.