@mrszig: I’m sorry to learn of your cancer - there are so many types, treatments and prognoses. Thank goodness we still have some research in progress (even though much of the previous funds have been cut)! This gives all of us HOPE!
My 3 1/2 yr cancer journey has taught me much about myself and how to live the days I have left. I went through the panic you describe until I decided to educate myself on my disease. This included learning from other patients with similar dx and their experiences. I had never been a “joiner”, but I joined three different virtual NET cancer peer groups. They offered videos to watch, lectures from renowned experts, and personal help. I learned!
Everyone reacts to our situation differently and I offer the above only to help you get to the stage of “acceptance”. No one will tell you why you have cancer, but experts are available to guide us to the best treatments and hope we will have more good days than bad.
You are not alone! Best…dbamos1945