I thoroughly enjoyed reading about your experience! Your clear writing and descriptions were positive and easy to understand and those going through that terrifying pre-op stage may have their anxiety level lower a notch or two. In so many ways all of our experiences are basically alike, yet the events that are outcomes of our individual differences are all good to read about. It reminds us that we are each a unique person and a particular thing that happen to someone puts that "thing" in the realm of knowledge for both our health care providers and those who may experience it in the future. I, too, had an ICD installed, mine was 4 months after my septal myectomy because of dizziness and giddiness that was caused by arrythmias when I was moving around; I named it Buddy, it took a while to figure out the cause. Your association with HCMA was valuable - I never heard of the organization or this blog till over a year after surgery, you were well prepared! Wishing you continued happy days ahead. BTW, yes, writing as you did is a part of your recovery - I, too, have an essay which is 16 pages long, read by many including my home cardiologist. Did you have your surgery in Boston (baystater is a clue)? My cardiologist recommended a place there and the Mayo Clinic - I went to Mayo 3 years ago.