Hi,
You need to talk to your doctor about the antidepressants and how they may be affecting you. Also since you stopped taking your vitamins do a search for the foods that would have those vitamins and minerals in them and eat those foods that you like. Natural foods with vitamins are better for you than taking vitamins in a pill form anyway. Your body is dealing with some issues and it needs all the help it can get.

Don't even consider suicide. Suicide doesn't always work. You could just end up paralyzed for life or very sick. When you have those suicidal feelings just ask God for help. You don't have to make a formal prayer. Just say, "God, please help me!" God knows all about you and your problems. He made you so he can fix you. Also he loves you and doesn't want you hurting yourself.

You sound like a very nice person! I'm glad you found this website. People on here are very helpful. I know they helped me a lot when my husband died a year ago.
I'll say a prayer for you. I'm sure things will get better for you.
PML