Oh my ...again!! I am so sorry your father is that way..it's just so very sad..and unimaginable..I don't think you're discrediting your Dad's line of service..or even your Dad..I think he is treating you terribly.. one day he will surely regret it.. you seem so sweet and precious.. I am just lifting you up to the Lord in prayer..(I think you are a believer.. when I feel like I don't belong.. I remind myself that I do belong to the family of God as children of God thru Christ Jesus..I've had to do this many times and it really helps.. you are loved and you are precious!!) I'll be praying for you!!