Waiting is truly a hard thing to do. Even now, a year since my last chemo, I seem to find something to worry about regarding my breast cancer journey.Distraction works pretty well for me. I am pretty active and involved where I live and am a widow. It is in the evening when activities are all over that I find my mind going to breast cancer and I start the "what if's". I turn on the TV to something calm like a Hallmark movie and work a jigsaw puzzle at the same time. I become totally engrossed in that puzzle. I have worked literally hundreds and still have a closet full of more to do. Just before I go to sleep, I read a book. I find it useful to write down the things I worry about or have to accomplish on paper. Gets them out of your mind. I hope you will find your answers soon and know that you aren't alone on your journey. There is a giant club of women who are on similar paths. Nobody can understand like someone else on a similar path.