Hi Jon,
I am glad you survived Covid-19. It scares me because once was enough on a ventilator for me!

I was in a coma for a shorter time than you—only about five days, but I was in ICU and a step down unit for about three weeks. Most of that time I was having severe delusions and nightmares. As I came around I had lucid moments that were mixed in with the delusional moments. I have asked those that experienced this time with me if what I remember is correct. My time line was not always right, but generally my memory of the experience is correct.

You are not crazy! That is what I thought at first, and what some doctors thought.

Two and half years later my memories of the nightmares and delusions are still very vivid. I, too, find that they creep up at night when I can’t sleep, when I am in the car by myself for long periods of time, and when I read about covid-19 patients on ventilators.

I was so thankful to be out of the hospital when I first got home that I scarcely thought about what happened while I was hospitalized. I just wanted to get well and regain strength. Later, when I had recovered, the memories came back to me.

Sleeping pills help when I get stuck perseverating on my experience during the night.

Feel free to ask me any questions.

Hope you are recovering well!

Michelle