@htolan
It sounds like you have been through a challenging time. I'm glad you have found some pain management. When you write, "My retirement isn't much fun." I thought of that saying, These are our golden years??!! I thought when I was in my 60's I had an advantage because I know what it feels like to live with chronic pain and disabling illness. When everyone else starts feeling old age, I will know how to cope. (Ha!!) What I didn't consider is that all of my illness would intensify, and there are new problems all the time because of long illness! I hope you can find even one thing in a day to enjoy. It can be a small thing. I'm glad you joined this support group too. Thinking of you.