So understand. What I find helpful in this group is the reassurance of not being nuts after doctor after doctor says "I've never heard that before" -- and I know what I'm experiencing - and now, because of the webinar on which I spoke a few weeks ago, proof. It was a very very bad "mouth" and throat day. Speakers are never supposed to apologize for anything. I had always had a good speaking voice - strong, clear. This was not and these were people, some of whom know me or of me and well .................