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my thoughts as i am dying 89
I’m dying now
but lo, It really hurts.
I stand and my heart stops.
I seem to levitate in reverie,
twice removed from death
but lo, I’m dying now.
It really hurts.
Not body pain
but psychic pain
The pain of saying goodbye.
Of knowing this joyous feeling,
these memories end
with the flick of a light switch
My friend says,
"do not go gentle into that good night "
I fume I rage.
It really hurts,
“old age shall burn and rave at close of day."
All my memories will be no more than stardust.
I leave all the gifts
I have been bequeathed:
born fee,
in a land free of war,
free of catastrophic natural disasters:
of earthquakes fire, flood, and pestilence.
memories of family
Lost in reverie .
How blessed we have been.
"rage, rage, against the dying of the light"
( Thomas)
I hurt, I rage, I love ,
all these memories are mine
and they will vaporize--
one page of memories,
my history,
will be torn from the tree of life .
yet it is only these memories that buoy me now, against the hurt.
what a gift it is to teach
to raise a family
to travel the world
to leap joyously
into any new adventure.
I'll miss all that ...
it just ends,
and the book is closed,
that hurts.
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"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened"
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3 ReactionsI am 89 female living in Melbourne alone?
I manage everything by my self, however from Wednesday, I will have a cleaning lady coming every week. Last night I fell off from my bed and aches whole my body, anyway I will see my doctor in two days.
I have a 11 years old Rugdoll cat. He is a good cat who taps my shoulder at 10:30pm and accompany to bathroom and sit on my bed until I turn my bedside light off, then he goes to his bed. Good night , Hiroko
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17 ReactionsWe will join you, soon
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3 Reactions@hiroko I’m so glad you’re getting some help in each week. You’ve done amazingly well for so long but you deserve to have that help. I love the sound of your 11 year old cat ♥️ He is so loving and wise. What great company you both are for each other. Goodnight.
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7 ReactionsThanks for sharing...I hope your home is well lit when walking in middle night. Close all drawers in bathroom so you don't trip and fall. One of my clients didn't do that and sadly layed alone on her floor for several days until someone found her. Healthy lady at 75 and survived but broke her poor neck. Please be careful. ❤️
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7 ReactionsI think medical Alarms that you can wear as a watch or pendant or keep just sitting by bed are in valuable
I know a few people who have used them and the call staff would wake them up at a prearranged time
They will also check during day if required
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4 ReactionsAh, yes. Dylan Thomas- " Do Not go Gentle into that Good Night".....
for his father I believe. I am an agnostic but would like to think there
is a heaven where you will see friends & only the family you want to 🙂
Safe Journey=your adventure begins. K
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3 ReactionsYes I’m hoping to learn how to play the harp and finally qualify to sing in a choir, a lifelong dream. Al a mark twain
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4 ReactionsThank you and he is a loving cat but he is getting old too.
It’s getting cold here now, so I don’t mind him staying in my room but as soon as I turned light off he goes out to living room on a sofa but not to his own bed.
Good night
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4 Reactions@hiroko Isadora was the name of my Siamese cat. I miss her still. She was rejected by my mother’s other cats (her sister Ming and her own baby, Salema - Sally for short). Isadora used to sleep with me when I stayed over and that became normal when she moved in with me. She was very good at lying curled up next to my waist leaving my legs free to move around, and not near my face. Perfect! Cats are such wonderful friends with minds of their own! Goodnight.
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