@joedeb
I am sorry! I know regret too—I don’t always meet my dad with positivity if he is complaining, etc, and then feel so guilty later. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night, thinking about how I could have said something better, or not said something, or had a nicer expression on my face. (Don’t misunderstand—no arguing, name calling, guilting him, yelling or anything even close to any of that. Just impatience on my face or snippiness in response to something he said in HIS humanness (yes, I need to extend grace to him too, as well as myself!). But you know what? We are HUMAN. Yes, our goal is perfect performance (and YES, the people we care for even deserve perfection). Walking in kindness and patience and all the fruits of the Spirit. But we are inevitably going to mess up. Now disrespect, abuse, etc is never never ok. But what you spoke of, and what I’m talking about, is pure human. We are doing life with the people we are caring for. We can’t expect anybody—including ourselves—to have perfect performance 24/7 for years and years.

I have to get off the guilt bus, and hope you will let yourself off too. I know I am doing my very best to provide everything I can for my dad, and give up a lot to do it. I know that for the most part, I’m doing a darn good job. I’ll bet the same of you. And if for no other reason than it will benefit them as much as us. This whole gig is exhausting and wild and emotional enough, without me exhausting myself over every occasional little lapse of perfection……Blessings to you!