I spent 7 days in intensive care after open heart surgery for mitral valve replacement and tricuspid valve repair. My aorta was nicked during surgery and I lost a lot of blood. I remember replacement blood over the next days but my HB is still low after4 1/2 months. I gained 14.5kg of fluid, I developed pneumonia and pleural effusion and had a total heart bock. I was left with post surgical atrial fibrillation which I still have. I reacted severely to amiodorine. I stayed four weeks in hospital instead of a proposed 7 to 9 day stay. A pericardal drian after 3 1/2 weeks took 2,1 litre from one lung, 0.6 from the other. Now on digoxin after three failed cardioversions, I have had a sudden onset of wet age related macular disease diagnosed in both eyes, entailing injections into both eyes every four weeks. I don't know if digoxin triggered the wet AMD but I know it doesn't control my heart rate and keep the Afib acceptably low. So I have to back to hospital go for further cardioversion and possible ablation. I am pretty traumatised by all this and I'm losing my ability to bounce back. It feels like PTSD. Maybe there are others who have felt the same?4