@m1rmiller it hurts so bad, so bad. Just this morning he told me he hate me and wish I would just get out of his life. I have not done anything to him to have him feel this way. I know mostly it's the meds, because this is not the man I married. He is so cold to me now. I can't have a decent conversation with him without an anger behavior lashing out at me. It has gotten so bad that my desire to cook, wash, or clean for him has just gone away. I use to love to cook, wash, and clean for him, but not anymore because he is always hitting below the belt. He has lost his table manners, social, and loving behaviors. He has become so secretive, distance , self centered and saying I am only staying in the marriage to rob him of his money. What we have we got together and if I was only in our marriage for money when his kidneys stop working, I could have walked out of the marriage and told him I did not sign up for this, but no I was in it for the long haul because I love my husband. We did 5 years own dialysis without this toxic behavior. I still had the man I fell in love with. Now , almost 3 years come August 6th since the transplant it's been living hell. I been living a nightmare. I've truly given my all and now I am just broken, torn, feeling betrayed. We were to share our golden years together, but I do not see it happening. I have suggested counseling and he says the only counseling he needs is for me to leave and never come back. That I disgust him. So , Mr. Miller please do not torment your wife like this and I am happy to know you recognize whats happening and apologize. My husband will not. I feel you will definitely seek counseling if your personality worsen. I pray for your marriage to continue to be as one and love remains in air. With mine, after dating through high school and 20 years of marriage, I believe all hope is lost between us.