Maggieinfp, thank you for hugs. I am trying to remain married to my husband, because it's only him and I. I feel guilty wanting to leave him, because I honor my vows, But he is making it so hard for me to want to continue with him. I use to love to cook for him, we did everything together as a couple: walks in the park, pinics, dancing, concerts, plays, shopping, movies, traveling, redecorating our home, watch prorams on tv, intimate, church and studying the Bible together. Now it's absolutely nothing. He say he wants a divorce, but want go file for. I feel like our life together ended when he received his transplant. Is there any light at the end of the tunnel or has my marriage come to an end? I was told by the doctor that a lot of marriages end with a spouse, who has had a transplant.