It surely does take time to assimilate the roller coaster ride of emotions we go through when first diagnosed with a potentially life changing issue. And I can appreciate what you’re going through trying to be patient, waiting for a definitive answer. Not knowing makes it difficult to come up with a plan of action going forward. Easy to be in that freak out stage!! Been there, done that, bought the shirt! 😅 Says, Mayo Strong, on the front!
I think it’s just human nature to ‘think the worst’…whatever that is. I’m sure the definition is different for each of us, however nebulous it might be. But what I have learned is that every moment I spend worrying is a moment of life wasted. So I hope your brain wraps around this new ‘un-diagnosis’ soon so you can get on with enjoying life without this nagging specter following you about.
When is your next set of labs/CT?