Have you tried taking a good Vitamin K2 supplement? I take K2 MK-4 every day. It is good for bleeding disorders and might help. I am pretty sure it has helped my episodes to stop or be very rare. You also need to take Vitamin D3 as they work together. But do not take them at the same time of the day. Both need to be taken with a fatty meal. Also anything you can do to keep inflammation down will help make those episodes less often. But again, your hemoptysis pattern is very typical with BE. A couple of TBLS followed by blood tinged sputum for another few days. It always clears up and resolves. It is an expected result of having BE and according to my pulmo (who specializes in BE, MAC and CF) nothing to worry about. Only if the blood is a large amount. That is very rare. As Sue advices your fear of it may be helped by a counselor.