@suensteve17, in addition to dealing with esophageal cancer, I note that you had a long ICU stay (2 months). Have you heard of post-intensive care syndrome? I'm wondering if this is something that you might also be dealing with. It can affect your emotional and mental state, as well as physical symptoms such as disturbed sleep patterns.

See the discussions in the ICU group here: https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/intensive-care-icu/

In particular, this discussion:
- Post-Intensive Care Syndrome (PICS) - Let's talk https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/post-intensive-care-syndrome-pics-lets-talk/

You can also learn more about it on this blog
- Post Intensive Care Syndrome (PICS) Blog https://connect.mayoclinic.org/blog/pics/

Let me know if any of this information or the experiences shared by others resonates with you.