I remember the first time my doctor told me, I sobbed and sobbed. Its not even because I have the diagnosis because I have two kids who were 5 and 3 year old who I was looking forward to raising them. Everything went dark for a day, that same night I prayed not for cure but more so for the strength to accept and deal with everything going forward. Its been 4 years now on and off the HU but now I am on it for good. I am 47 now taking 1500mg which is a lot for me but hopefully it works and on my next appt we will drop the dosage I will be taking. Till this day I haven't told my mom and dad, they are elderly both with HBP and other issues. I feel bad but in a way I am protecting them from the worries that will completely shatter them. My husband and 4 people in a family knows. Its hard to talk about it but it helps. Hung in there!