How to justify and deal with unrelenting anxiety.
Even in the best of times it’s there. Worst of times it’s out of control. So often my anxiety controls me mentally and physically. I don’t want it that way try to out think it give it a name. Justify the reason in a calm rational way when I am not calm or rational. It does not seem to matter what the scenario is. I freak out. Mexico. Freak out. Flight airplane TSA boarding connection landing. Getting there safely. Then I am already worrying about going back home when I have just arrived.
Now I have SMM. Unknown. Wait and see. Blood tests. Monitor. It could happen or might not at all develop into MM. See you in 6 months.
Point is no matter what the situation is I still deal with anxiety. Pleasant trip vacation or an illness that will last my lifetime. I know traveling in itself is stressful. And having a lifetime illness is never a good thing. But it seems anything out of the ordinary I am stressed. On edge. Anxiety. I just wish I could get a better handle on my emotions.
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Anxiety and depression normally go hand in hand.
Hopefully you can find the right combination of antidepressants.
I have been taking Zoloft along with Wellbutrin and Buspar. I have also been taking Klonopin for my anxiety. I know I am going to be judged harshly for mentioning Klonopin but I am 73 and have been taking 1mg in the morning and 1mg at night for thirty plus years. This combined with the other drugs has worked for me. I can’t guarantee it will work for you but dealing with extreme anxiety might make it worth a try.
Good luck to you.
Thank you Leigha I am putting my faith in God . I pray for you . I take antidepressants and anxiety meds.
Hi, I struggle with anxiety constantly. I was trying to meditate on a regular basis but then I stopped. Getting back into it, even just for the breathing. These are very stressful times and I Aldo have anxiety that my young 30 something daughters won’t get their act together. I’m tired of supporting them. I had a good stress test and I still worry about my heart. I worry about other health issues. The bottom line is that I feel like it’s one step forward, then back. I wish us both luck on this journey.
Thanks for response and support. It’s a lifeline. Oncologist are aware of my anxiety but treating it goes into a different arena. Mental health is a gray area. Feelings are difficult to verbalize. But it does affect my overall health. But now with SMM my insecurities have magnified to the point any little thing becomes a compounding problem. What next! Why is this happening to me! Why do I struggle so. You start questioning life as a series of challenges. Not to enjoy but to endure.
What I meant is that having anxiety, if you have been diagnosed with MM as distinguished from, anxiety due to fearing you have MM when you don’t. I didn’t word that very well.
"...life as a series of challenges. Not to enjoy but to endure."
Right there with ya, friend...
Anxiety caused by the pain or inability to move ?Any weight bearing joint is hard. Age physical ,well-being , degree of breakage. Now is the time to spend with PT and get stronger. It helps in your abilities and confidence that this can be overcome over time. I’m with you in this. I have had hip replacement X3 , femur fracture and shoulder replacement X2. From wheel chair to crutches to walker. Arm slings and enough ice and cold packs to make a new Alaska. But it’s temporary at least for me. Now at 66 I jog play all sorts of sports and came out on top. This happened over years. A journey for sure.
I used to live with a woman who had 2 boys. Older 18 and 27. They seemed to be attached to their mom’s hip. Never thought of moving out. Never paid rent never did much of anything. No responsibility. I still think to this day that it is unhealthy for this kind of codependency. Unless mental health is a factor. Lazy unmotivated unable to take care of themselves make them dependent on you to solve their problems. She left since this arrangement was not in my or her best interest. But being a mom she could not turn her back on them. So it goes on indefinitely. Not good. Stressful too.