I've had periods in my life of chronic pain and undiagnosed neuropathy when I've felt exactly the same way. What's the point of living like this? (it's been over a decade) Sometimes it's very hard to even try to find a reason to continue going through the same routines every single day for years. It feels like there's no end, and the weeks and months just fly by.

There have been times when I was severely depressed and suicidal, and began talking to a mental health counselor. I'm also lucky enough to have my family around me to support me whenever I've needed it. My wife always goes above and beyond to take care of me, no matter where or when it's necessary.
We have 2 awesome kids with families of their own, and 4 grandkids between the ages of 17 and almost 6. They are the reason I'm still here.