Hi Dorothy and husband,
I hope today was a good day for you two. I'm sorry your husband has Parkinson's. That's awful to deal with.
It's hard when you don't have a lot of friends and probably don't really feel comfortable with a lot of people in your life. My husband and I were that way also. All of our friends and there weren't many have all died. My husband was 83 when he died of lung cancer. I'm 78. We preferred just to be with each other. Now it's just me.

I'm sorry about your anxiety over different tasks that you have to do. Have you tried talking yourself through them? Sometimes I do that. I just tell myself out loud, "I'm going to start the laundry and then go make the bed. After that, defrost the hamburger for dinner." It puts things in perspective and they don't seem so overwhelming.
That is terrible that you were abused as a child. But that was then and not now. Maybe it's best to try and forget about it as much as you can. It could be that you are afraid of the therapy appointments because that's where you re-live the terrible abuse that you had done to you.

Have you and your husband done anything fun lately? Like making popcorn and watching something on TV that you both enjoy? Or perhaps doing a jigsaw puzzle together. My husband did both of those things together. We also made cookies together. It makes things easier to cope with and we all need enjoyment in our lives!

I wish you both the best. Keep praying and so will I.
PML