I'm so sorry. I lost my best friend Linda six years after her transplant. The liver she received wasn't the best but she was so sick they had no choice but to go ahead with it. She got cancer and it was too late before it was caught. Thankfully she went fast in ten days and didn't suffer long before she entered hospice. It's not something that those of us that have to watch our dearly beloved friends pass ever get over. It's been a year already and I still can't bring myself to delete our chat conversations or her phone number from my contacts. It probably makes it worse but in a way I feel I still have her. We were going to be Thema and Louise and grow old together. I wish upon you all the strength it takes to live through this uncharted situation and I'm sure she wasn't able to express her gratitude for you caregiving, know she loved you. She will be looking over you forever. Hugs to you and her family.