Keep that chip in your pocket or wallet. It's a tangible reminder. Loosen up at the meetings, get to know the people. Talk with them. Listen to them. Hear them. Tell them what you're about. Let them get to know you, the real you. Open up in the meetings. Start bearing your soul, little by little as you feel comfortable. One step at a time. It's not therapy but in a way it is. The nice thing is that in an AA group I don't think that you can say anything stupid or embarassing, or at least your fellow AAs won't read it that way. We all have our stories to tell. Put going to AA meetings above all else. If you absolutely can't make your regular meeting, go to another. There are lots out there. Meeting makers make it.