I so understand your feelings. I feel the same. We had so many plans for retirement that we have had to put to the side…we make the best of the situation, but it is still so hard…more so I think for me because he basically lives in the moment where I am remembering how it used to be, realizing how it is now, and a little fearful of how it will probably be going forward. The Lord is my strength and my source. I lean on Him heavily knowing I am not walking this journey alone. Please know your feelings are not wrong. You will work through them, as we all, are as we care for our loved ones.

You have articulated my feelings exactly. I understand what’s happening and my anger Comes out at everyone. I have an appt next week for us to begin a program where each of us participates in different groups, each with different goals. Some days I am patient and understanding but other days, I am not pleasant. I recently had a BIG birthday, and it has added to my anger as I see my life become “something else”…there is a difference between head/ mind and heart…feelings are feelings and we are allowed these feelings.

@judimahoney I am angry too!!! Angry about the disease, angry there's no cure, angry about the emotional loss of my hubby, angry that I can't get some respite relief from family members, angry I can't do the the things I used to because I'm a caregiver 24/7, angry for the loss of my husband....but despite all this, I love him with all my heart!! And i remind myself why I fell in love with him and then a smile makes its way to my face and warms my heart, even if he'll never be able to give me those things again. But I'm also grateful that there's people like all of you that I can share my feelings and my story and experiences with.