Surgery isn't scary to me in the least, I've had a few and the most invasive one was also robotic to take a cancerous kidney. It's the recovery that I'm not looking forward to, more to the point, the side effects of losing a prostate.

But here it is, the day is nearly done and I'm still at peace. I've accepted my fate and I will go in without hesitation.

I remember something, which is a quote but is also something a CO said to me a long time ago: "Bravery is being afraid but doing it anyway". I'm there, it took me until the 11th hour but find my bravery for this new change in life but I did find it and while it's occupied my mind all day, it has not given me any grief.