I have been in Clonazepam 0.5mg TID for 18 years
My psychiatrist retired and I was left to find a replacement. It seems there are a majority of nurse practitioners these days taking patients as providers, many do not take insurance. I found a nurse practitioner with a very good educational background. I saw her in person and she renewed the medications I was in for 6 months. Next month we had a zoom meeting and she told me she wanted me off the Ambien and Clonazepam because I would get dementia or Alzheimer’s with long term use. She insisted I start tapering against my will. I had school phobia in grade school, began having depression symptoms in my 20’s, and in my late 20’s had two major panic attacks. I have been depressed with anxiety most of my adult life. I have been hospitalized twice because of this. I have never asked for an increase in dosage of Ambien or Clonazepam fur 18 years after I found a wonderful psychiatrist who was so good at medication management.
Now, tapering Ambien and Clonazepam I have started self mutilating by picking my fingers raw until they bleed. I can’t sleep at night, I have become socially phobic. I have become isolative and often think of suicide with no plan. I am 73 years old and I think it is so cruel to put me through this when all I want is to have quality of life, not quantity. I live with my husband in adult senior living which I have not adjusted to. Taking these meds away has decreased my desire to exercise and my endurance is decreasing. My new provider told me if I didn’t want to taper my medication that I should find a new one provider. I did manage to taper the Ambien but I am down to half of the Clonazepam and feel like I can’t go on. Please help me. I am on Paxil and Wellbutrin for depression but it is anxiety and insomnia making my life miserable. I am not the same person I was a year ago.
I feel miserable, she has destroyed any quality of life I had. I really don’t want to live anymore.
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@sears, I responded to your message and realized it wasn’t directed to my comment, I understand now what you are saying. I was missing information at my end on further discussions about this issue, it finally came back hence my previous comment to you.
About having some sort of permanent disability from taking Benzos?
Please find another doctor. I also have anxiety and depression. Left on my own I can not sleep. My doctor proscribed Trazodone for sleep. It was a god send and allows me to sleep soundly through the night.
Good luck on your journey. I did get a neurologist who is a sleep specialist and would have prescribed the clonazepam for me but I had been off it long enough to know I never wanted to endure another taper if I didn’t have to. I’m sleeping thanks to Lunesta and my anxiety is better as well. It has taken over a year but I haven’t fallen once and I’m sharper mentally. I would not have known so I guess I’m somehow better off. Everyone is different and I know people in their 70’s still happily taking a benzo without issues.
You bring up an interesting point that most folks don't understand. The reason docs don't like seeing folks over 65 is because once we are on Medicare, the reimbursements from the govt. via Medicare is much less than the doc receives for a younger patient on traditional insurance via their employer plan. It's really night and day, so providers typically lose money on Medicare patients and make their money on those under 65. It's called cost shifting, so employers are in effect subsidizing low reimbursements via Medicare. 99% of people don't know this, only reason I do is because I was an Insurance executive and consultant until I recently retired. Sad that docs are dropping older folks but thats the reason. Best of luck to you!
I took care of geriatric patients half of my career and now I find myself in the same age bracket. I loved caring for the nursing home and home bound elderly but now that I have reached that age myself I feel discriminated against and feel lonely, and feel neglected.
When I need a medication like Clonazepam, I am rejected because of the stigmas. I sure do hope my provider will be able to help me.
I have been on Trazadone as an antidepressant and I didn’t tolerate it.
All I hope for is getting my Clonazepam back so my quality of life, what remains of it will be good.
The thing is I need to stay on the Clonazepam because as I taper I’m having symptoms that are not conducive to quality of life[.
The beta blocker propanolol is what I used during the last and hardest part of my taper. I still use it and consider it a life saver.
Same thing happened to me. I started tapering when I was 67. My original doctor abandoned me and it was very difficult to find another willing to take on a “benzo patient” at my age. Horrible!