I so understand how you feel. My husband has decided to stop his chemo treatments this morning. He has been suffering so much from the chemo symptoms that he just said I can't do this anymore. Of course, I support him in his decision. Maybe after the chemo finally leaves his body, he will have some quality of life back. I just don't know what to expect. I have not gone through this very long as it all started just last september. He is usually pretty good, but I hate to leave the house because he is always calling me for something. He is so weak that it is hard for him to just leave his recliner in the living room to walk to the kitchen or bathroom. Do you get time to yourself? I know that caregivers definitley need time to get away even if just for a few hours. But don't feel bad about yelling at him. He is not going though this alone. You are going through it with him. It is OK to yell now and then. We have to vent too, although we feel so guilty afterwards. But it is OK. Hang in there.