Loneliness and depression are hard to deal with alone. You need to get professional help. I don't care how independent you are, sometimes you need professional help. Some ideas for you are to join a health club, go to the YMCA, volunteer at your local hospital, and go to church. There are all kinds of places you can help out. For instance, your local library would love to have you read books to children or teach an adult how to read. You could help HABITAT FOR HUMANITY. Just look online under your neighborhood VOLUNTEER OPPORTUNITIES. I hope this helps. I am going to do something new for the New Year.