Dear Karen. Probably most of us have the fear of getting sick again, of getting MAC reactivated or of other scary things that we deal with. So am I. Ask your family doctor for anti anxiety medication. I tried two andcould not take any because every time I developed racing hear and high pulse. I am still open to mental help and must find it near my home. But I am sure your medicare covers mental health and it should not ruin your finances. I think most of us are on a very tight budget. I never realized that a chronic disease can be so costly. Every extra purchase such as probiotics and tissue, filters must be purchased with the savings money. I hope you will get the help you need. My best to you.