Hang in there Janice. It takes time to heal and get back to your old self. Once you start feeling better hopefully the clouds will start to lift.

If you would like you can read my experiences after my own myectomy 10 years ago at http://www.Cynthiassummeradventure.blogspot.com. Start from the beginning and read
@rushtonrocks, my old blog might help you with your planning as well.

Good luck to all.