Hi Denise96,
Wow, your plate is so full! It really sounds like being home full time was timely. Ill be praying for safety around his smoking. My father use to do the same thing, Totally scarred.
Have you considered attending a support group? I attend one a month and plan on attending a second one each month. I believe having an outlet to share our successes and struggles, as well as supporting others in my group has healed heal my depression. Of course thats the beauty of Gods word. Take my eyes off myself by loving and giving to others.
I wish you well Denise, and hope you have support while navigating this ever changing road we have found ourselves on.