Thank you for your understanding and kind words. I do have family but they are about 30 minutes away which isn't that far but they all still work. My mother lives on my property but she is 92 and still fairly healthy but I don't want to put this on her. We did not get to talk to the palliative doctor as no one called at 11:45. I called and the woman said she did not have an appt for him. She said it was for January 24. I thought I must be losing it also, but I found the card and it definitely said December 24, 2024. Then she said it had been cancelled and I told her we were never notified. The palliative care doctors are the ones that prescribed these pills for my husband. 80 mg oxycodone which I give him, 20mg of xtampa (oxycontin er9) and xanax two a day. Tonight I have been really sad. I am not really feeling this holiday and really did not want to do my small christmas dinner with some family, but I was worried that this could be his last christmas. I am doing it for him. He went to bed this afternoon at 4 and is still sleeping. He never sleeps well, so I don't want to wake him up. I just heard him cough so I know at least he is still alive. Sorry that was not very nice to say. Thanks again and have a very Merry Christmas!