HI THERE!
MY COMPUTER IS A PAIN. I WROTE MOST OF MY REPLY AND THEN IT DISAPPEARED.
ANYWAY, SO HAPPY YOU HAD A GREAT TIME WITH YOUR GRANDSON. I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN ABOUT NOT WANTING YOUR GRANDSON TO REMEMBER YOU AS OLD AND NO FUN. I FEEL THE SAME WAY.
MY KIDS USED TO TELL MY GRANDS THAT I WAS SICK, SO BE CAREFUL. I ASKED THEM NOT TO DO THAT. NOW, THEY TELL THEM TO BE CAREFUL OF MY BACK AND NECK. I CERTAINLY PREFER THAT THAN BE THOUGHT OF AS THE SICKLY GRANDMA.
MY OLDEST GRAND, WHO LIVES DOWN THE STREET, HAS BECOME VERY CREATIVE. AS YOU I AM SURE YOU KNOW, THERE ARE DAYS WHEN I CANNOT GET OUT OF BED OR OUT OF MY CHAIR. SHE HAS FOUND WAYS TO BRING THE FUN TO ME. SHE IS NOW OLDER AND 'KNOWS HOW TO HANDLE GRANDMA.' SO WHEN I AM FEELING WELL, I TAKE ADVANTAGE TO DO THE 'FUN' THINGS I CAN'T ALWAYS DO. I BELIEVE THAT SHE JUST WANTS TO BE WITH ME. SOME TIMES, SHE WILL JUST COME SIT ON MY CHAIR WITH ME AND READ OR BRING A LITTLE TOY OR COME INTO MY BED AND WATCH SOMETHING.

AS FOR DOCS, I AM NOT GIVING UP ON THEM. AS YOU MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW, I HAVE FIBRO BUT I ALSO HAVE CERVICAL AND LUMBAR SPINE ISSUES. THEY SYMPTOMS COULD OVERLAP. I CAN SAY THAT I THINK THE FIBRO PART IS UNDER CONTROL MOST OF THE TIME (EXCEPT WHEN I WOULD GET A MASSAGE AND THEY WOULD DO
DEEP TISSUE...I LEARNED MY LESSON ON THAT ONE). ANYWAY, I HAVE TAKEN WHAT I LEARNED YEARS AND YEARS AGO AND IT HELPS.
I THINK I MAY HAVE SHARED WHAT I DID AND STILL DO TO HELP. IF I DID, I APOLOGIZE:
1. TAKE MEDS TO GET ME INTO THE DEEP SLEEP (HEALING STAGE).
2. EVEN WHEN I AM IN PAIN, WALK AND EXERCISE, EVEN IF I BREAK IT DOWN TO SEVERAL TIMES A DAY.
3. AQUATIC PT, NOT LAND
4. THERAPUTIC MASSAGE WITH SOMEONE WHO KNOWS ABOUT AND UNDERSTANDS FIBRO. IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO FIND SOMEONE. SHE WAS GREAT AND CONTINUED TO TAKE CLASSES SO THAT SHE COULD TREAT ME.
5. CHIROPRACTOR

SADLY, I CANNOT DO MUCH OF THESE THINGS BECAUSE OF MY SPINAL ISSUES.

ANYWAY, DO WHAT YOU CAN, WHEN YOU CAN, AND ENJOY EVEN WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR BODY IS ATTACKING.

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!
RONNIE

Parus that's the proper attitude positive thinking I have given up on Dr.s long ago There is a very good article by Dr. Mercola today please read it go to his site this talks about dementia,Alzheimer's but is good for everyone.For my fibro the fibro site recommends more Magnesium.I take Fibro Malic from Vitacost but in this article he says a new Magnesium Theronate breaks the blood-brain barrier holds alot of promise,I'm going to research it I just do Tramadol for sleep.We fibro people need a solid sleep to relax our muscles. So glad you are doing what your doing Linda

@parus, I don't think there is a better way to use any energy we coax out of our bodies. I sometimes have to force myself to be present with them, but always find some reserve from them and never end up wishing I had not participated in whatever it is. So glad you made those three days of memories that will last long after we are gone. My kids remember more about my parents (1 here and 1 gone) than I do, although I did spend a lot of time with my Dad after I became disabled and his physical abilities had not declined completely. Lots of rounds of golf that I would trade nothing for - that would not have happened had I not been ill and often wonder if I would have chosen being sick if I had known I would miss out on those times. I am glad my future is mapped out by God and not me.

Amen me too .Read 1Peter 4

@gman007 Amen brother. Those 3 days were worth every precious moment. Thankful for all the things I learned from my father. He also taught me what a suicide can do to others. I would not want to continue this cycle. Have a blessed day Gary.