Burn Out ! Been there many a time, This passed Friday I even called a lawyer, total crashed that morning after my wife started screaming, throwing things and totally trying to push all my buttons.
History on my wife, she is 66 been married 25 years, she has two girls, I have a son and two girls too. All married and total of 9 grand-kids. In 2017 we lost a lot of family members and pulled her down. On December 25, 2018 after auguring during the day she ended up shooting herself in the head. She had said earlier in the day she wanted to die on Christ's Birthday since he took her mom on her birthday.
Being a Fire Captain for 31 yers I dealt with many EMS shooting calls. She was DEAD ! As I kissed her good-by God said to push on her chest and on the second compression she started to breath.
I thanked God above and said I'll take her in what ever shape. Three 1/2 months in the hospital I brought a woman paralized on the left side confined to a wheel chair with 98% of her sharp mind still there.
She is pain always, she struggles with everything she try to do. Did I tell you that it's all my fault, she'll say I should have left her daed.
My history, 70 year old retired Fire Captain, scuba diver and all that fun stuff. I have PTSD, injured from a 20ft. fall into a basement and still breaking in two new knees 1-year. Total back issues and loosing my mind from a chemical exposure and still question my action on Christmas Night. Should I just have kissed her and left the room.
I pray a lot, just quick chats and the biggest help came in a dream and was told to ( BE PATIENTS)

Good Luck