I am so sad reading your story. Is the pain in your back breast cancer that has spread or some other cancer type? I can't offer anything but support and reverence for your strength and will. Perhaps a new or second pain drug might help? Morphine has never worked on my pain (oddly) but Dilaudid (not sure on that spelling) always works for me. Don't know if you might be able to investigate alternative pain control. I don't think it's any consolation to you but reading your post today made me realize that I am blessed and need to quite worrying and whining about my breast cancer diagnosis because right now I am not in pain and as far as I know....cancer free and 'holding'. Prayers from me tonight and hope that your pain will subside and that you will be able to find moments of happiness despite the horror you are going through with all of this. It's all I have to give to you, but you are not alone because I will never forget your post and I am a better person for it. Your life has more meaning than you know.