You're right, @parus. I've been more depressed lately, and after I went to the hospital lab this morning for a blood draw, I came home and am in bed. I feel weak and tired and flat. I'm only going to respond to your post and take a nap. I know, @tbaxter33, that several people, especially my wife and adult kids, would have a hard time dealing with my death, more so if it came by my own hand. As I've said before, when I'm deeply depressed and suicidal, my brain somehow just manages to look right past the reasons for living, as if they were invisible or didn't exist.

Jim

OMG! "If wishes were horses beggars would ride"! My mom used that saying a lot and I have never heard it except from her. Do you know where it came from?