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I survived suicide attempts

Mental Health | Last Active: Nov 10, 2022 | Replies (126)

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@overwhelmed

Hey Jim, Yes I am still up, though acting drunk because I am so tired. I have some of the latest information regarding SCS surgery for you :
http://www.neurologyadvisor.com/interventional-pain-management/outcomes-in-patients-with-chronic-pain-may-be-improved-with-early-spinal-cord-stimulation/article/634701/
As far as being at peace with the transition. I am not religious Jim, though I respect those who are and I do understand what you mean. No further explanation is necessary. My only worry is if I do not end up dying and end up like a vegetable or with serious cognitive impairment. I have a DNR however, I am never sure if it will be respected. Out of misery is better than living like this. eh?

I am so glad that your surgery is going forward for you Jim. I will be your biggest cheerleader!!!!

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@overwhelmed

It's been a long time since we communicated, and I wonder how you're doing. I'm thankful for the pain relief from the spinal cord stimulator, though it hasn't totally eliminated it. Right now, after a day in town for an appointment with the ENT doctor, and hours of shopping with my wife, my feet are hurting. Last night, I ate 3 cannabrownies before bed, and it certainly helped.

I like my therapist. He's a great listener, and has been a real help getting me back to a safe place and getting the depression level up enough so I can function. I had the stimulator trial implant, then 2 cataract surgeries, and the implant, and after each thing, I couldn't bend, twist or lift any weight for a week, and 6 weeks after the implant. That really set me back with all of the yard work, so I finally was able to mow the ankle high lawns, and pull knee high weeds from the garden, orchard, multiple flower beds, and at the same time, deal with 14 traps in the pasture to reduce the huge ground squirrel population and the gophers and moles in the yard. I'm still fighting the moles, etc., in the yard. By now, I spend a lot of time watering and weeding. It's been so hot here that I can't skip a day.

I know I ramble. I really started this note just to find out how you're doing. So, it's time for me to stop writing and go outside and move hoses.

Jim

Hi Jim, thanks for thinking of me. I have not been on in a while even in some of the other groups. My health has been deteriorating more & more lately. I also just finished getting the last three of my teeth removed ( a result of having severe dry mouth, a side effect of my medications). I have been told that dentures for me will be approximately $30k!!! This Once again is due to the medications giving me dry mouth. Since I barely have any saliva my mouth cannot hold in normal dentures!! I need bone graphs & almost snap like things that hold the dentures to the top & bottom of my mouth. I am not sure that I have that kind of money to spend, especially on myself. I have had to get a lot of work done around my house & that is not cheap. I am also trying to stay in my house as long as I can but unfortunately it is a two storey so I am going to need an electronic chair to get me up & down soon!! The stairs are the hardest thing for me! Before I can do that I need to redo all of my floors (more $$$) not just because my house is almost 20 years old and the carpet is really due. Plus I can't use my scooter on carpet. So far it h as been difficult doing an

Hello@overwhelmed

Thank you for your response to Jim's @jimhd post to you. I'm glad that you updated us. It sounds as if you have been experiencing a lot of problems, including many that require large expenditures of money. We all know how difficult those kinds of problems can be.

You say that you want to stay in your own home as long as you can and that is certainly understandable. Are there any options for you to move to a one story condo or house that could be more accessible for your current needs? Do you have family or friends who might be able to help you to transition to housing that would be more accessible?

Teresa

It can be hard to explain to someone who's never been there, how things can become more and more difficult as they pile up on us. When we moved into our new house 11 years ago, we were just happy to have a place that we owned again, but it soon became apparent that some things needed attention. We signed up for a senior and disabled energy audit, and after their inspection, a crew showed up one day and super insulated the crawlspace and attic. For free! !!! Then they sent someone else to look at health and safety issues, and ended up doing a bunch of work. Carpet was replaced with Pergo flooring because previous owners had animals that soiled the carpet, and it wasn't helping our allergies. The roof was rapidly deteriorating due to windy environment, doors and windows were old (aluminum) and inefficient, and we couldn't afford to use the electric furnace. So, we have a new metal roof, new doors and windows, and an oil-fired stove in the family room that heats the whole house. We had enough roofing left to do the detached garage, as well. They also added a second set of stairs on the deck.

There was no way we could have afforded to do all of this, but they gave us a low income loan, with interest based on our income. (I think it's 1%, to be repaid after 20 years, or if we sell the house. In the meantime, we don't have to make any payments! ) I don't know your financial situation, but senior services might help you with finding ways to do everything.

Habitat for Humanity came one day with a big crew of volunteers after I'd been in the hospital, and did a bunch of work that I wasn't able to do at that time. They put up a fence around the garden to keep the deer out, built a shed that enclosed our pressure system for the well, and did some landscape projects around the place.

God has blessed us through some good people. If I lived near you, I'd work with a group of fellow volunteers to help you, and I know that I'm not the only person who'd be happy to do so.

I don't have all the answers, but I do know that God does, and he'll provide for you as he has us.

Jim

It seems there are still kind and caring people somewhere and I am thankful.