I would strongly recommend that you don't suppress your emotions. I tried to do that and it made things worse. You don't have to be emotional in front of your family if that's too much right now, but maybe go on a walk someplace quiet and peaceful outdoors, or go sit in a beautiful old empty church or some other peaceful place and just let it out. You will feel better and if you keep things bottled up it may all come crashing out at once in a way that's not so great (see my initial posts on this forum if you want some examples).

On the plus side, it sounds like you are doing everything right so far and there is a wealth of information available here as well as lots of good people who can help you out and share their experiences. We're all in different places and different stages but everyone here has something to contribute that can help you out.