Loss of a parent suffering from pancreatic cancer.

I am so sorry. From your short message I assume you have a parent that has passed due to pancreatic cancer.

Your hurt is palpable. Saying goodbye to our parents is one of the hardest chapters to close.

I lost both parents so far as I’m 67 now. Lost my dad to pancreatic cancer 25 years ago when he was 77. He was misdiagnosed as having food poisoning and therefore didn’t receive any chemo by the time I was able to adamantly demand that he do a CT on my dad as it had spread everywhere. He hospice stay was in our home. He never complained or took pain medicine and it was very difficult to see firsthand the cancer take over his body, but there was so much comfort for me (and him I believe) that he ended his days with family. It sounds like your parent, judging by your pain at this time, had that comfort from you as well; knowing they were well loved. The evening my father passed was so difficult for me (even though he physically had suffered so) that I couldn’t sleep at all. It’s very difficult when parents aren’t with us physically, but they are still with you spiritually and I’m sure you have so many memories of wonderful times you shared with parent. I hope this isn’t inappropriate detail at this time, but I recommend that you yourself get tested for any germline (inherited) mutations that your parent might have had. So sorry for your loss. In my prayers and some Hospice programs offer offer post recovery services.