Hi @jay_baruch, thank you for being opening up about what you're going through. I've seen many of your posts on Connect before and know that you've tried different therapies and medications yet your depression hasn't fully subsided. As you mentioned, alcohol can complicate things as it is a depressant and can worsen the situation when combined with antidepressants: http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depression/expert-answers/antidepressants-and-alcohol/faq-20058231

Have you tried channeling your anxiety into hobbies? It can sometimes be a positive distraction that aides in the coping process. Here's a list of some other methods in case you haven't tried them: http://www.helpguide.org/articles/depression/dealing-with-depression.htm

I'm also tagging @jajade, @lilwitch, and @roxie43 who might be able to share their experiences. Never forget that you're not alone, we're here for you.