I have had three spinal surgeries. C4-C7, L1-L3 or something like that, and C3-C4. Now, I am being told I need a fourth surgery from C7- T 2. I refused. I am sick to death of all the poking and medication. Now, I am on Morphine 15 mg. To be honest, last night I just wished it would be all over. Then I remembered I was just married on 09/20/24. It would not be fair to my husband, but I wonder, how is this mess fair to me?