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Ready to throw in the towel ... never imagined I'd be this sad
Mental Health | Last Active: Oct 19, 2016 | Replies (18)Comment receiving replies
I'll listen my family completely abandoned me when they found out that I had mental health issues like anxiety depression PTSD anxiety and I have sensory processing disorder and I'm probably on the autism spectrum somewhere. Most of my friends abandoned me I have a few friends that still keep up with me if they don't want to hear anything about my problems they just want to hear the positive stuff so I'd rather be alone. I don't feel like people get the right to just certain parts of my life they don't get the joy and the happiness part they don't experience or don't support me with the emotional part. I feel like it's a good thing for us to connect on sites like this because I think a lot of people are facing this type of discrimination from their families and when everyone's life is going perfectly they don't care about sick people and they don't want to hear anything about it and I think it's ridiculous I find it to be humiliating and degrading. I feel your pain I am empathetic towards it and I know exactly what you're going through because I was dumped by my entire family and friends when I got my depression now for over a year now without any treatments or help my doctors don't believe me my parents don't believe me my friends don't believe me physically I've been left in the dark for an entire year without working without friends without family support I basically have nothing. I don't feel supported I don't feel loved I don't feel like anybody really cares. But I do care about you and I would like to hear more about what's going on and how you cope things that you do to feel better but even if you aren't feeling better I'll hear about that part too because that's most of my day 90% of my day is feeling completely horrible so I understand
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Amber, it is a strength to admit to your thoughts of jealously and envy. It appears that by recognizing them, you've set a plan of action. Namely before retreating to where you were, you are going to objectively look at both situations. I might recommend not only looking at the financial comparisons, but also the emotion, social and health pros and cons. Keep talking. We're listening.
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Hi dear friends .... well, it's been another "kick in the pants" week. I went to a lake at a National Park with my girls and grandkids last Fri., and it made me feel sad .... my X and I did that often and would camp and hike and just "be." My 3 kids get along wonderfully for which I am grateful ..... my 2 girls are planning their Christmas trip to a state park in WV ..... they do this every year .... they take Christmas lights, music, and items they are making a craft with for gifts. They stay in a cabin and just have a wonderful time .... they are so fortunate to have each other. During our time Fri. at the lake there was a lot of talk about what to make, where to get it, etc., often several feet away from me (not intentionally on their part), and I felt totally left out and unwanted ..... remnants of earlier life. Then I realized that what was actually happening was (and I am not proud of this), I was jealous of their relationship. I always longed for a sibling which I never had, to walk through the hell of our childhood .... it would have been someone to talk to. I was always alone, living within myself. I have got to stop being so sensitive to these things. I wanted my 3 to have good relationships, and they do, and now here I am .... envious of it. I feel like a 10 year old.
I also went to pay some bills this morning and my checking account is way overdrawn! I have been meticulous about keeping track of everything and it totally panicked me. I'm in the process of getting dentures and they've been a monthly bundle, but I thought I had all the figures tracked ..... apparently not.
I just feel sick. I think moving here was one giant mistake. Perhaps growing up alone, albeit in a drunken, drug riddled family, I continue to prefer to be alone. I am going to sit down and figure out what my costs are at both places, and depending what I find, I well may go back, get a job, and just stay there. My girls won't like it, but I'm sorry about that.
I guess I really should tell you the origins of this spiral. My father died 13 years ago and left me a very large inheritance. At the advice of a "friend" I got myself a Financial Planner to help me with it and unknown to me, he was a smaller version of Bernie Madoff. I, and others, were left with less than 1/3 to 1/4 of what I had. I was sick .... it was my father's hard-working money and this bas___d stole it. Sure, he is on probation with the SEC and was fined a hefty fine, but what about all of us who got "taken" ..... I have been told by a lawyer that the way the contracts were written, we had no recourse ..... those of us who lost money through his scheming and overbilling are just out of luck. So here I am, and all the rest - whomever they are - living our "golden years" in a way totally unforeseen.
Thanks for listening friends,
abby