I am definitely alone forever. My husband died 3 years ago. We had a very long relationship. We dated for 3 years before we married and were married for 59 years. Also I am very old. In 11 days I will be 90 years old. I am in pretty good health, with no chronic diseases so I don't have to take a ton of drugs just to exist. I live independently in our home. I do not have dementia so I am able to make all my own decisions. Best of all I can and do drive - even on freeways. In other words, I am like everyone else; just a bit older. However I realize that when I enter my 90th decade there is not much time left. I have always been awkward with people. I do not have any support system. I have a couple of friends, and we get together for lunch every so often. I have two sons. One lives in Asia and the other has thrown me out of his family. So there's that. I have thought long and hard about my situation. Bottom line is that I feel more comfortable, albeit lonelier, just being by myself so that's the way it is going to be. All my financials, trust, will and funeral arrangements have been made.