Is it gonna be okay?

Hey..i got born with a dad who works far away and a mom with anger issues, she used to beat me n insult me for dumb reasons and i couldn't tell anybody cuz she was threating me. She was also controlling the way she forced me to cut my hair so short for 8 years, i got bullied for it by my classmates and that made me have a very low image of myself that none could ever change. My dad was wondering why my grades are getting worst while he doesn't know that my mom's who killed my motivations. Anyway i survived all this shitty treatement and comparing until i met someone...someone i thought she would change my life, she was beautiful, kind and i loved her even if she was distant. But at some point she changed her behavieur and started to treat me like a stranger until she admitted that she's cheating on me with a girl and insulted me using all the secrets i told her about and not gonna lie that made a scar deep inside me that would be hard to get healed, i wished her to be happy tho. Coming back to my parents, my parents compared me with the neighboor's daughter and yelled at me saying "why wouldn't u be like her? She doesn't even have a phone while u have things most people doesn't, don't yall have the same brain?". I mean...i know i'm not the son you always wanted but i'm trying so hard...you deserve better dad.